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Good things are happening for me in the whole SCHOOL dept, so I figured I should catalog them here.

So, I had a very positive meeting with my adviser on Friday (her emails suck but in person she is great). She gave me a few things to accomplish in about 2 weeks' time, and it is going really well. The #1 thing I have to do is pull together my committee, which I was worried might be really hard but has gone great, so I have 4 people on board. I probably need 1 more person and then I'll be set. Then it's on to the next thing (finishing that DAMNED incomplete from 2 years ago, and writing up the memo/firming stuff up with profs).
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I can't seem to fall asleep anymore. I tried for 2 hours last night and again today I have been lying in bed for an hour or more trying to fall asleep and I can't when I am desperately exhausted. I don't know what to do about this, I need sleep so badly but I can't sleep and it's not like I can take benadryl or something.

Last night I was so tired I was basically incoherent and crazy and it was good I wasn't operating heavy machinery. We had another horrible night with Robin and I had a window of opportunity for a nap that has been blown and I don't know if I will make it through the afternoon. I am so sick of being in a constant state of crisis and omg what will I do, I can't fucking stand it anymore.

W. T. F.

Apr. 22nd, 2010 05:50 am
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Robin's illness continues. Her coughing finally woke her up at 5 am. I had her use the inhaler, which we've been practicing with. It seems to not have made a ton of difference. I am not sure I'm using it perfectly, it's hard to get a toddler to comply with a face mask, but I thought it would make more of a difference. I gave it to her 20 min ago and only just now is her cough slowing down but it certainly hasn't gone away. I just don't understand how she can get a cough every. single. time she has a virus with NO EXPLANATION, and it NOT be viral-induced asthma. **BANGS HEAD AGAINST WALL REPEATEDLY** This was my silver bullet and now I'm really worried we'll just be dealing with this awful cough FOR LIFE with NO RECOURSE.

I'll have to call my doctor. (Have I mentioned our new doctor and how much I like him? I took Robin to her WBV last week and we had a great talk. He tested this weird rash on her knee that she's had since JULY and 2 days ago he CALLED ME to tell me the results. Then he said he'd check on it again when I bring Holly in May 4th -- probably the closest I'll ever get to back-to-back appts or whatever. I told him about Robin's frequent nightwaking and he asked some Qs, mostly to rule out night terrors, and then said, "Well... that sucks!" Ha.)

Yet she has no fever and is in fine spirits, and is even eating about the same as usual ("cerealmilk" as she calls it... cheerios and milk). So I'm confused and uncertain about how to move forward. The whole do-I-send-her-to-daycare-or-not debate is getting soooo old. Childcare is supposed to solve problems, right? I could let her stay home with the nanny and Holly. SIIIIIGGGHHHH.

We set up a new toy shelf with bins and a sling bookshelf in the never ending quest to use our small space more efficiently. I keep hoping that if she can see them, Robin will play more with her toys instead of messing with our stuff and whining :).

Robin just said that something on tv was "really annoying." Ha. At least she's in a good mood, at least she's in a good mood, at least she's in a good mood...
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thx for the support yesterday. the afternoon ended up going fine. robin slep much better (i think your allergy tip helped, [ profile] need4cognition) but holly was very restless from gas (i ate too many brussel sprouts, i guess!). i did keep r home from daycare today to try and avoid whatever bug our provider's son has. we had a great morning -- park, library. nap went well, and this aft [ profile] rroso came and entertained the girls while i took a nap for the first time in, hmmm, 12 weeks??!! it was incredible. brian got off work early and i made black bean and corn salad with fresh cilantro from our porch garden -- incredible!!

so, a very good day.
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Is this what a cry for help is like?

I am not handling things well.

I'm lonely

Mar. 22nd, 2010 01:13 pm
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I'm so lonely that I'm kind of starting flame wars on facebook with healthcare reform haters (apparently I went to HS with a bunch, and gave birth at the same time as a bunch). I need more friends. I need to talk to grown ups more.

I've had a rough few days.
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If you have a wonderful husband, fiancé or boyfriend that works hard to provide for you and would do anything just for you and your family, then repost this as your status to give the honest well behaved men out there the recognition that they deserve! Great men are few and far between, and I have one!


i added a bunch of women from my ddc and some are uber conservative.

"well behaved"???


Mar. 4th, 2010 08:12 am
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We did go to the clinic and it turns out Robin has an ear infection. Now the rest of us have caught the cold that started this whole thing, which makes me feel awful. I HATE that Holly is sick at 5 weeks, and I HATE that I had to cancel my 2nd day back to teaching.

Also, our midwifery bill is dead.

This week can suck it!!


Mar. 3rd, 2010 08:58 am
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Now Robin is sick with a cough and fever. SHIT. Do I take her to the doc?? I HATE HOW SHE ALWAYS GETS A COUGH.

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See more pics of her party here.

Still nursing!

Holly is 4 weeks old today.

Happy birthday to you, my girls.

Or as Robin would say, "happy day noodles."
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That's right, she is already smiling a little bit.


And the cutest thing ever captured on film (or whatever you'd say for a digital camera).

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Things are going pretty well over here. We've settled into a manageable routine for now anyway... Brian has been taking Robin to daycare and going in to work a little later. I pick her up (with Holly's varying cooperation, sometimes she's cool with the carseat, sometimes less so... I haven't had the guts to take her anywhere farther away than the daycare!) and we come home. I try to nurse Robin for at least 5 minutes, again with Holly's varying cooperation, after which I get up and leave and she usually falls asleep within a few minutes.

After naptime we hang out. If I'm lucky, we have a visitor, but those have been few and far between. Being at home with both girls is not bad at all -- the sling saves my bacon regularly.

Mostly I sit around on the computer doing some jobhunt stuff for Brian and avoiding school related stuff (blech, I should be working on a paper. Next week! I swear!).

I had a pp visit yesterday... Holly is up from her birth weight to 8 lb 7 oz (yay!). Her head grew 2 cm. She has been declared perfect. Her eyes have been really goopy so we are going ahead and doing some abx ointment. I think it's already helping.

OK. She just pooped through her diaper. Gotta go.
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I had a baby today.


Holly Geraldine born at 10:06 am after 8 hours of labor -- 8 lbs 4 oz 20.5 inches (longer and skinnier than I expected!).

She looks exactly like Robin did as a newborn, but duskier skin and darker hair. She has already nursed about a zillion times and has made 2 enormous poops in her short life.

I will post about the birth soon, maybe? I feel like I should take some time to process before I write about it, although I will say that YES it was shorter, YES it was intense, and YES birth still hurts like hell. I feel great, though, and didn't tear at ALL (wooo!!!).

Holly is a name we liked. Geraldine is for Brian's grandmother. Robin has already given her many kisses and shared nanas with her. But she was pissed when Brian took her back for her nap and I didn't come, nor did BABY 'OLLY!

It's all snowy out and everyone is sleeping but me.
pics and deets soon!!
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sorry if i kept you all in suspense. no baby, no signs of baby. i'm kind of to the point where instead of thinking "why not today??" i think "why today?" i just don't see this birth happening any time soon. sorry! i got adjusted at the chiro this morning, and yesterday at a FOIM mtg i got a bunch of acupressure, but nothing seems different.
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Every single blessed thing is in place for the birth right now. I just got this email from our midwife:

So...we are expecting a big ice storm tomorrow and Thurs so, of course, you will go into labor then. Call early...

See you soon!


Please join me in sending some vibes to the baby to head our way tonight/early tomorrow! Maybe if we have collective brain waves working, my uterus will get its act together and everything will fall into place.

I'm going to get some rest.
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I'm probably going to stop updating until the baby gets here because I'm feeling really demoralized and frustrated and don't want to spend all my time complaining about bouts of false labor (more of which I had in the middle of the night last night). So... if I seem quiet, it's probably not because of labor, because apparently THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN... it's because I just think I need to step away and be inside my own head.

4 am

Jan. 17th, 2010 03:49 am
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Robin finally woke herself up coughing so we got up to take more motrin, eat a snack, and watch a little tv before hopefully going back to bed feeling a little better. I'm usually awake right now anyway... but I'd rather be in labor ;). Fortunately she's in a fine mood and not whiny, just obviously not feeling well. I'm going to eat a snack myself since I'm up.

no news

Jan. 15th, 2010 07:59 pm
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Things have quieted down considerably this evening, and I was able to get a nap in. Maybe tomorrow? Who knows. Going to rest up and eat a good dinner. xo!


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