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I'm really pissed about it, too. And its just a bonus on top of a night when Holly wanted a boob in her mouth 24/7. So, hey. Did I ever say something dumb like Holly was a different or better sleeper than Robin?

I really hate my husband right now, because he is asleep, and he gets to sleep every night.

So my IUD got placed and it was and is no big deal. The anticipation was the worst part. The placement itself was uncomfortable but quick. I've had some mild cramping (not even as bad as my worst regular cramps, I'd say) and a tiny bit of spotting. I honestly don't even notice a thing different. So I'm hoping it stays this way and I can give it two thumbs up. Only BAD thing is that she trimmed the strings a little short and due to the way the thing is sitting, she can't visually check it's placement, so I have to get my first ultrasound to check my birth control in a month :P.

I'm angry.
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... because I feel like a total failure in every way today. Holly got me up at 4:45. I hoped for something like a nap, but the power blipped off and on a dozen times and then a bunch of trains moved through. Have I mentioned the heat? We have a heat index of 110 today, and a dew point of 80. I was feeling wussy about it, but looking at the numbers I am realizing that yes, it's legitimately FUCKING HOT and even Oklahomans would be whining.

I took Robin and Holly to the tot lot this morning and had ambitions of going to the mall play area and/or children's museum if the power stayed off, but since it came back on I've been sitting on my ass watching tv all afternoon and I don't think I'll change that. Don't ask me how much Caillou Robin has watched today. It's embarrassing. Also embarrassing is the fact that I have no plans for dinner. Brian will be home late.

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Went to the doc earlier this week for a checkup and to talk about getting an IUD. I'd heard iffy things about this doc (gave bad BFing advice) but she's convenient to our house so I went with her anyway. I kind of liked her, she was nice and I felt like she was good at flagging potential problems. She asked me a lot about the fatigue I experience and talked to me about options for dealing with potential depression (and highlighted counseling and yoga/exercise before saying that a low-dose antidepressant was also an option). I guess my thyroid is a little prominent so she had some bloodwork done (I guess it must be normal, they were supposed to be back yesterday and she said she'd call if it was abnormal... but maybe she's busy). She's also checking my vit D levels and some other stuff as well. She recommended that I lose some weight (but was sure to ask me what weight I would feel comfortable with and that I could maintain). I mean, yes, I'd love to weigh 130 instead of 150, I just don't know when I'll squeeze this yoga and exercise into my day. But I will try to at some point in the next whenever. I know she's right, I *would* feel better. Ugh, stupid good advice.

She agreed that I'm a great candidate for the IUD, gave the whole spiel, and then said "sometimes they won't approve it for contraception but will approve it for menstrual problems, so, have you had any problems with your period?" And I was like "yeah, it's really heavy, right?" which was funny. So once it gets approved I'll get it inserted (weirdly nervous about this). I'm really excited about having a condom-free sex life. Now if I could only manage to be awake enough to have sex...

Holly's sleep is crappy! I think I broke her. I think I made the same mistakes I made with Robin and now she'll only sleep 45 minutes at a time and freaks if there's no boob in her mouth. FUCK. I don't know how to fix this, either, without making her cry, and Holly's cry BREAKS MY HEART INTO TEENSY PIECES because she is SO SWEET AND LOVING. She seems to take it really PERSONALLY that there's no boob (whereas Robin just seemed insulted). Siiighhh.

She's sitting up on her own for a minute or two at a time. Still a little unsteady but really close. She's so excited about this. She's getting mad when I put her in the Bumbo :P.


Jun. 29th, 2010 07:56 am
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Great naps yesterday = lousy morning today? Robin up at asscrack of dawn. Holly nursed a ton last night. Back hurts. But c'est la vie.

I read TIME's list of top blogs and now my google reader has 400 new items for me to read. Kind of loving Apartment Therapy right now, even though have no $$ to do that kinda stuff, and my place isn't cool at all. I'm fantasizing about moving back to Iowa City. With school and daycare and sitter and splashpad there, it really feels like I'll be driving there 20 times/week. But would be expensive to move, rent not as cheap, place not as nice. Dunno, we'll see how it goes. Probably just the 2 year itch. I haven't lived in a place for more than 2 years since I moved out at 19.

Cranky kids...
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Robin slept through the night again. My brain doesn't believe it, but my body does: I am no longer waking up completely at 2 am and 4 am as I have been. Sometimes she's getting up really early, but I'm not complaining. Hoping this is a real trend that will continue. Loving it.

Holly is refusing bottles and sippies from the sitter. I don't know what to do. I wish she was a little older so I could leave some solids for her, but that's a month away. I guess I will probably have to work from home and hope that once she hits 6 months, she likes solids enough to get through the morning. She isn't inconsolable or even super fussy, she just doesn't want a bottle and eventually she gets really hungry. She's also almost completely off the pacifier: she only takes it from me, when she's completely relaxed and nearly asleep, and I do it just so I don't have to lie there with my boob in her mouth until she's completely out.

Her naps are weird. She's dropped an evening nap entirely. She's up from about 3:30 until bedtime at 7:30. She still takes a morning nap, and then may or may not take a late morning nap depending on if I'm home (if not, no dice). She naps twice in the mid-afternoon. Really, what she needs is a long morning nap and a long afternoon nap (by long I mean more than 45 minutes!). I tried the whole "go in before she wakes up to nurse her" thing a few weeks ago and it didn't really work, so I quit before I got frustrated unnecessarily. May try it again, though, at least with the naps I'm around for. But I'm hopeful, hopeful... having a real bedtime routine has already reduced her wakings between her bedtime and mine to one brief one, so that's good.

Sleep. The topic of my life.
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R slept through night AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
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Robin has slept through the night 2 nights in a row. She wakes at 5:45, but still. Holly is pretty wakeful but that's ok. Progress is progress.

crazy week

May. 3rd, 2010 02:06 pm
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I keep intended to update and not having time to process everything before a kid wakes up! It was an intense week sans daycare, and sans Brian for a day, plus a car trip with both girls, plus a Friends of Iowa Midwives steering committee meeting, plus having a friend over for dinner. A hectic, stressful, but overall good week. And it makes my regular daily life seem downright cushy in terms of time and help and whatnot.


Ummm... life is good for the time being, and we had a few really good nights of sleep with Robin (last night sucked tho).

More later. Sorry!!
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I can't seem to fall asleep anymore. I tried for 2 hours last night and again today I have been lying in bed for an hour or more trying to fall asleep and I can't when I am desperately exhausted. I don't know what to do about this, I need sleep so badly but I can't sleep and it's not like I can take benadryl or something.

Last night I was so tired I was basically incoherent and crazy and it was good I wasn't operating heavy machinery. We had another horrible night with Robin and I had a window of opportunity for a nap that has been blown and I don't know if I will make it through the afternoon. I am so sick of being in a constant state of crisis and omg what will I do, I can't fucking stand it anymore.

W. T. F.

Apr. 22nd, 2010 05:50 am
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Robin's illness continues. Her coughing finally woke her up at 5 am. I had her use the inhaler, which we've been practicing with. It seems to not have made a ton of difference. I am not sure I'm using it perfectly, it's hard to get a toddler to comply with a face mask, but I thought it would make more of a difference. I gave it to her 20 min ago and only just now is her cough slowing down but it certainly hasn't gone away. I just don't understand how she can get a cough every. single. time she has a virus with NO EXPLANATION, and it NOT be viral-induced asthma. **BANGS HEAD AGAINST WALL REPEATEDLY** This was my silver bullet and now I'm really worried we'll just be dealing with this awful cough FOR LIFE with NO RECOURSE.

I'll have to call my doctor. (Have I mentioned our new doctor and how much I like him? I took Robin to her WBV last week and we had a great talk. He tested this weird rash on her knee that she's had since JULY and 2 days ago he CALLED ME to tell me the results. Then he said he'd check on it again when I bring Holly in May 4th -- probably the closest I'll ever get to back-to-back appts or whatever. I told him about Robin's frequent nightwaking and he asked some Qs, mostly to rule out night terrors, and then said, "Well... that sucks!" Ha.)

Yet she has no fever and is in fine spirits, and is even eating about the same as usual ("cerealmilk" as she calls it... cheerios and milk). So I'm confused and uncertain about how to move forward. The whole do-I-send-her-to-daycare-or-not debate is getting soooo old. Childcare is supposed to solve problems, right? I could let her stay home with the nanny and Holly. SIIIIIGGGHHHH.

We set up a new toy shelf with bins and a sling bookshelf in the never ending quest to use our small space more efficiently. I keep hoping that if she can see them, Robin will play more with her toys instead of messing with our stuff and whining :).

Robin just said that something on tv was "really annoying." Ha. At least she's in a good mood, at least she's in a good mood, at least she's in a good mood...
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thx for the support yesterday. the afternoon ended up going fine. robin slep much better (i think your allergy tip helped, [ profile] need4cognition) but holly was very restless from gas (i ate too many brussel sprouts, i guess!). i did keep r home from daycare today to try and avoid whatever bug our provider's son has. we had a great morning -- park, library. nap went well, and this aft [ profile] rroso came and entertained the girls while i took a nap for the first time in, hmmm, 12 weeks??!! it was incredible. brian got off work early and i made black bean and corn salad with fresh cilantro from our porch garden -- incredible!!

so, a very good day.

4 am

Jan. 17th, 2010 03:49 am
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Robin finally woke herself up coughing so we got up to take more motrin, eat a snack, and watch a little tv before hopefully going back to bed feeling a little better. I'm usually awake right now anyway... but I'd rather be in labor ;). Fortunately she's in a fine mood and not whiny, just obviously not feeling well. I'm going to eat a snack myself since I'm up.


Jan. 15th, 2010 11:51 am
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Tried to take a nap and had contractions AGAIN for over an hour that went away when I got up. I'd like to EITHER be in labor OR take a nap, thankyouverymuch!
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We are all super tired this morning, which makes no sense! I took a nap at 10 am, and Robin fell asleep at 10:30 (which is like 11:30 "normal" time, which is STILL early). Brian is napping now. I'm worried that this adjustment is going to suck! :P

I'm sitting in stinky pajamas finishing my lunch of Chinese takeout leftovers and muffins (?). I feel like I'm just killing time until we go see 2 potential houses at 2:30. I can't find 2 important books that I need to read THISWEEK and I'm annoyed at Brian for this, because he has moved my school stuff 3 or 4 times this semester. I've checked everywhere reasonable I can think of and am worried I'll have to buy them a second time and fast ship them from Amazon to have them get here LATE. ARGH.

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Robin is down for her morning nap. We'll see how long this lasts.

This week has suuuuuucked. OMG. 9 month sl HA! SEE SHE WOKE UP!!!


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